It has been two months since I wrote my last post. Wow, time goes fast.
Right now, I’m preparing my 6th class. I have started to teach! I still can’t quite believe it.
Since I shifted my attitude from ‘teaching yoga’ to ‘sharing my experience of yoga’, I’m much kinder to myself and relaxed about teaching. I’m still nervous at the beginning of every class, but I get there 20 minutes early so that I can meditate, focus on my breathing and the passing moment and avoid playing films in my head about what will happen during class and how good I will be.
I have started to know my crowd and the more I do that, the easier it becomes. It is like everyone has a “yoga personality”: limits, strengths, expectations, attitudes and the more I get to know those, the more comfortable I become in tailoring the asanas for every person and the general feel of the class. It is great to see the start of my students’ journey into the practice (oh my god, I said ‘my students’ for the first time ever!)
I am learning so much about teaching while making sure I keep people’s body (as well as my own) balanced, use the space fully (front, back and sides), uproot habits (bad AND good), making sure that people don’t beat themselves up because of their physical limits, but help them cultivate acceptance of their own body (and therefore themselves) as well as develop trust that things will come with time, if you sprinkle the practice with love and compassion. Practise, practise and it will come. As with many things in life.
And the most amazing thing is the feedback. When people tell me that their migraine is gone, that they slept really well, that they felt relaxed like they haven’t been in ages or that they feel loose and open – well, it’s all worth it. I feel like I have helped them a little in their lives and this feeling is so rewarding! I understand now what my tutors meant when they mentioned about ‘helping others’.
The unspoken feedback is also just as rewarding. Seeing people coming back again and again makes me feel that they must have found something useful in my class. There is a lady who buys herself every prop I lend her during practice; every time she will have purchased something new, renewing this way her commitment to my class and to yoga. This makes me feel happy!
There is so much more I need to learn as this is only the start of the journey and I still catch myself making mistakes, but hell it feels exhilarating!